You might have heard it said that it is easier to ask forgiveness than permission.
When we have our heart set on something it is difficult to make a change. Our culture fixates quickly and, like a dog with a bone, will never give up on attaining what it wants. At the core of this issue one finds sin. We give in to our passions and lust. We let desire overcome our faculties. In those moments Gordon Gekko echoes in our head that “Greed is good.” This extends far beyond money. We have a tendency to sin in a few major categories: Money, Power, Popularity, Sex.
But Balaam responded to Balak’s messengers, “Even if Balak were to give me his palace filled with silver and gold, I would be powerless to do anything against the will of the lord my God. But stay here one more night, and I will see if the lord has anything else to say to me.” That night God came to Balaam and told him, “Since these men have come for you, get up and go with them. But do only what I tell you to do.” So the next morning Balaam got up, saddled his donkey, and started off with the Moabite officials. But God was angry that Balaam was going, so he sent the angel of the lord to stand in the road to block his way.
Balaam already knew what God had said the first time. He comes back again because Balaam has already made up his mind. He wanted money and power. He wanted to be with the cool crowd. He was willing to do that which God did not want him to do. A surprising twist happens next. When God calls him on it, Balaam’s confession only includes the outward act.
I find that we often will confess the actions, but withhold the motivations. Balaam confesses the sin of going with the men. He does not confess the sin of greed and lust for power. When we confess our sins we must be careful to consider the motivation for the sin and confess it too. Only then do you receive a full cleansing surrounding the behavior. Confession is a time for you to get to the heart of the matter. Sharing the “whats” is easy. Make sure you include the “whys” as well. You will find a new joy and peace.